I’ve been struggling since I’ve been home. I’m still not sleeping well, I am living with a new auto-immune diagnosis (although its not much of a surprise, its forcing a lot of change in my life), and while I want to go outside, I think I have gone out once in the 10 days I have been home – and that was to get a bottle of wine – which I am not allowed, due to the new auto immune diagnosis. I am feeling dissatisfied with life, am extremely anxious, and am really irritable. I need to make some changes.
Here is what I propose to do – starting the moment I finish this blog post, and get out of bed. After all its 11 am on Saturday morning.
Regarding the Hashimoto’s Disease diagnosis I received last month, starting Monday I am fully committing to a 30 day elimination diet, and am researching other diets geared towards auto immune diseases. For years I have experimented with vegetarian and vegan diets – and I feel really good on them, but its quite clear that they aren’t really helping me. I am nervous about how I am going to feel while eating meat – my little experiments eating meat in Austria were met with a great deal of pain. But I made a promise, so I will keep it. My doctor thinks I can turn around the diagnosis with just diet, and not have to take hormones -so I am willing to give this a really good shot. Today is the day I go to the shops to turn my life around.
I have no idea what my fear of the outside is about – but the only way to conquer it, is to just go outside and enjoy it. So while I am not going to pressure myself so much, I am going to plan to go outside for an hour every day – rain or shine. It should help now, that there is some extra daylight hours happening.
Being dissatisfied with my life, is nothing new. I’m kind of the girl that just keeps plugging along, thinking that this is my lot in life. But I have some very big dreams, and I need to start pursuing them. We start small. A business plan is the first step, and finding some like minded people to hang out with.
Finally, I have been reading The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron, and its been helpful in getting me to connect with my creative self. One of the ways it does this, is by suggesting you go out on a solo date once a week. When I’m traveling, I do this all the time- but not so much, when Im home. So I’m going to start doing this again. The only rules are that you must do this alone, and it must be something that you do outside your home. It doesn’t have to cost anything, but I think she suggests investing at least $5 into the activity – but I don’t think its necessary. Im starting the project this weekend, by taking myself to the VIMFF Vancouver International Mountain Film Festival – where Im going to see this. The VIMFF is my
most second most favourite film festival – second only to the Samurai Festival that is shown every year or two at The Cinematheque.
What are you doing to get out of your rut – Id love to hear some suggestions.
Photo Credit – PracticalCures.com.