Laurenaissance, music, scheduling, Uncategorized

Time For Me

Lately, I have been running out of time. Not just losing track of time -I am doing that, but actually finding that there are not enough hours to get everything done. It all came to a head this week, when I found that I wasn’t able to complete some projects that had a deadline. This is unusual for me.  No matter how tired I am – or how busy I get, I always manage to complete things on time. Turns out I can’t do that anymore. I’ve also noticed that I have started cancelling appointments, and sighing with relief when other people cancel on me. I find myself falling into bed completely exhausted and actually sleeping for a few hours – this is the one positive thing that has come from all this over-scheduling.

I had a conversation with a friend of mine about this- and she had a brilliant idea via Michelle Obama (not that they are friends or anything – she went to an event/lecture by her). Mrs. Obama talked about how when she is constructing her calendar, she schedules in her must do things (for herself or for her children) first, before scheduling other meetings/events/appearances.

I was listening to this, thinking I have a very different kind of life than the former First Lady, but I definitely have a scheduling problem. So, while I have a completely insane schedule for the rest of February and March (which includes working 7 days a week), I can try this out for April and the subsequent months.  Now, I already have a proposed calendar – but I have managed to do a bit of moving things around and I think I have come up with a plan. It feels like I work 80+ hrs a week. What makes it seem like I am always working, is that I don’t ever schedule in things like billing, or scheduling, or lesson prep. I do those on my own time.  And so I am often sending out invoices from my phone, while I am waiting for a movie to start on a Sunday night. This is unacceptable.  But if I take a careful look at my calendar, I notice that I have a 2.5 hr block between lessons on a tuesday, where I can do my invoicing and follow ups (and so Im going to schedule in some admin time – DONE!). I shouldn’t have to look at that every week – which gives me a few extra hours a week for practicing, and checking in with parents, and maybe even do a bit of marketing.  So instead of using that time- for scarfing down dinner or madly preparing for the next lesson, I can invest that time back into my own business.

The one aspect that my calendar is missing is time for me.  I have already made lunch hours a time to get a bit of exercise (me).  I have an entire freezer full of already prepared dinners, so I don’t have to worry about cooking for the next 3 weeks, but I rarely schedule fun.  Mostly because by the time I get around to it – Im fast asleep.

Here is what my average week looks like:

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Work = 40 hrs
Ensemble Rehearsal = 7.5 hrs
Lessons = 15.5hrs
Admin = 2.5 – 5 hrs
Practice= 10 hrs

And if you add in the volunteer hours I work, you can add in an average of 2 hrs a week. That brings me up to almost 80 (hah! so I was right).  But there is definitely time for me.  In fact, I am quite surprised at how much white space is in my calendar.  I don’t feel the need to schedule every single minute of my life – but I like knowing that there is room for almost everything I want to be doing.  And now that I have realized that I can reschedule things, in order for me to have a  more balanced life, I feel like I won’t be missing deadlines, or forgetting things. In fact, I feel like I have quite a lot of room to breathe. Maybe so much room, that I should take on another project. Or maybe just schedule in some fun things, until I start feeling like me again.

*I purposely don’t put my practice hours into my calendar because right now, I am feeling the need to be flexible with my playing.  Also did you notice – no therapy sessions for March! Time for a bit of a rest.

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Friends, intovertism, Laurenaissance, Uncategorized

Its Gonna Be Great

IMG_1953The past couple of years a lot of us have moved away from making resolutions, and instead have chosen three words to focus on for the coming year.  I have been one of those people.  In the past, I have chosen words like: practice, learn, imagine,  sparkle, engage.  Some of the words I have chosen were completely within my comfort zone, and some were ones that I simply wanted more of in my life – because at the time they were nonexistent.

For example, practice is something I do everyday – if I am referencing my guitar.  Sparkle on the other hand – is something I am still lacking, unfortunately.  But I am not going to punish myself for being a bit dull.  I will simply add it to this years list – along with 3 more.  But I am going to do something a bit different this year- and that is add some specific action items to go along with each word.  I will say, that I plan on keeping up with my regime from 2017 – practicing every day (trying to reach 90 minutes), reading every day, and cooking at home as much as possible (maybe even try to learn proper spanish cooking this year).

So here is my list of 3 words + 1 word from last year.

Broaden – this refers to my outlook.  So I plan to travel, go outside, talk to strangers (good luck Laura), take myself out on solo dates once a week, learn a new language, look for new opportunities (purposely vague) and listening to podcasts.  Things that i plan on continuing – reading every day (incorporating more non-fiction).

Float – this is to remind me that I need to let things go.  If a plan doesn’t work out -I shouldn’t get upset, rather I should learn from it – and understand that there are reasons for things not working out.  Just let things happen, and don’t force them.  It’ good to paddle.  But sometimes we need to let go of the control.

Energy – I spent most of 2017 in rehab for an injured elbow.  I have come a long way – and I am ready to move into more intensive forms of exercise.  Along with a physical therapy regime that puts me in the gym/therapy offices 3 days a week, I will commit to a daily yoga practice – which I will steadily improve on, with an aim of getting to an actual class in a yoga studio by the end of June.  I have already gone back to a vegetarian diet – and am looking forward to getting into a stricter vegan diet, because that is I feel best when I don’t eat or drink animal products.  As well, I am going to practice becoming less introverted this year. I spent 2017 turning down invitations and instead spending time reading or alone thinking.  Its time to add some people into my life.

And last but not least – Sparkle.  The only thing I managed to do last year, is grow my hair, and get my skin looking healthier.  Im not really sure what sparkle really entails – but I think its along the lines of looking and feeling my best – and maybe smiling a little bit more than occasionally.  So thats the plan for 2018.

Do you have any resolutions/focus words for 2018? If you feel like sharing, I’d love to read them. Maybe we can help each other reach our goals.